the 'what ifs'

been thinking a lot of the what ifs due to the current situation that i'm in. what if i had went to another jc. what if i took another combi of subjects in jc. what if i went into another fac in uni. what if i had studied harder in yr1 and 2. what if i had spent more effort in hball. what if i didnt fell in love with hball. what if i didnt get diarrhoea on that fateful day juz before the semis. what if i had played better. what if i don't shout during games, esp hball games. what if i'm still in uni now. what if i had found a job. what if i didnt go shanghai. what if i stop hball totally. what if i'm fitter. what if i had played much better during games. what if i'm not injured now. what if i cant get a job. what if i get a job n i dun have the desired freedom that i like in life. what if this. what if that.

i dunoe. dun think i can give up on hball. i love it too much. but i cant deny the fact that the idea of stop playing hball has started to seep into my mind. it doesnt help with the current situation. doesnt help cos of those factors. doesnt help at all. i dunoe wat to do now.

FREAK!