i dunoe since when..but it's recently..i'm getting more n more blur..mixed up my frens on msn..not once but twice in a week. seriously. wat's wrong wif me?? i'm deeply affected by frens too, esp recently too..when they feel down, i'm worried. when they feel happy, i'm happy for them too though i myself wont be happy cos of my own problems..i read my frens' blogs..i see them troubled over something - i get worry too..i'm in deep trouble la..this is so not me..i dun get affected so easily in the past. i do get affected but not so easily. i dun get worried abt my frens..they tell me they are okay..i believe them..now i dun believe them so easily n yet i cant do anything to help them. i feel so bad. if only, i had end up in arts to study psychology..i can help them if i did..i can help many pple..haiz.

in the past..when i was younger, i had always been interested in studying pple..psychologically. n now cos of my lousy a level results..i end up in computing..doing something dat i have less interest in but wont mind doing n learning..perhaps i may be happier there..knowing that wat i study can help pple..but it doesnt promise anything..being in SoC has better prospects..haiz. still i think i may end up being a social worker..sianz..

back to topic..i reali reali wanna help them..though i cant help myself..i hope to help them..so they wont suffer..haiz..SAD..wat's wrong wif me man..